Ok, so millions of people do that too. Big deal.
Anyways, I guess I just wanted to brag on myself a bit. For school I was given a two-page paper as an assignment. I wrote five. And I could have done more; I wanted to do more, but I had gotten to that point where I was weighing the consequences of feeding my addiction versus how annoyed my professor would be.
In addition to that, shortly before I came to my realizations I was taken by the urge to edit a bit of my book I started a few days ago. Now, this "book" has been going around in my head for about three years. I just never knew how to start it. I know where I want it to end, I know some of the middley, fleshy parts of it, but I had no idea where to start. I've tried tens, maybe hundreds (probably not hundreds) of times just to start the darn book, and I'll get a few paragraphs in, say to myself "I really think this is gonna be the one" and then leave it to die.
I realized that when I get back to working on those things, it gets good. Really good. Now I know that saying that about my own writing is extremely narcissistic, and what you have to understand is that I'm usually not narcissistic at all. But in a way, maybe a little here and there (in complete moderation so I wouldn't even be able to notice that it's narcissism) it was good for me. I've always struggled with feelings of inferiority (I mean, who hasn't? It's a pretty natural thing) and I think that now that I've found something that I actually really like, I've been completely inspired.
My point to all this? I just wanted to write, and my family and friends have been telling me I should start a blog. And I think that'll be a good thing for me; it'll be a good way to feed this addiction I have.
Also, I just really wanted to let everyone know how awesome I am.
That was sarcasm. I'm not that bad.
The other point is this: feed your (safe) addictions. To emphasize that word safe, I will say right now, I am NOT telling you to continue to feed an unhealthy addiction, such as drugs, alcohol (which is a drug, I realize; so many realizations today!), food (in an unhealthy amount), or reality television. What I am saying is to "live your dream" if you will. If you want to be a writer, then write! Write like I am now, or just go and journal; do whatever suits you. If you want to do something else, whatever it is (as long as it's not illegal or harmful to you in any way) then do it. Use whatever talents you have in the best way you can. Make an impact in the world with whatever you do really well. And make sure that you actually do it well. Put forth the best effort you've got to write the most amazing book ever like I'm trying to do, or to become the world's greatest athlete, or to be the first person to live on Mars or whatever planet comes next in our solar system.
Yes, I know it's cliche, and I know that if I hit the big "Publish" button at the top of this page and someone reads this, they too will think it's cliche. But that's alright. Because if you're doing what you love to do, in a way that will hopefully help you to make your life the life you want it to be, then you can be as cliche as you want.
That was my attempt at wisdom. Now go do whatever it is you need to do! I'm going to bed.
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